WHOA! So behind on the blogging thing. I guess I’ve been sort-of lost in trying to process some things out here. I keep saying it but i’m really learning a lot here. I think this might be the best decision I’ve ever made. I’m learning to be independent for the first time in my life. My parents are amazing and work so hard to keep me on my feet EVERYDAY when I am home. But there is really so much to learn outside of that protection that I certainly don’t take for granted. For example at home when things went wrong I went to them to sort things out or just to be mad and they rescued me a lot. Here only I can rescue myself and because of the time zones they are not always able to be there for me to run to eventhough they would want to be. As a result i’ve learned how to let things roll off my back for the first time and i’m learning to gauge things and not to flip over the little stuff. Every time I talk myself down from some little thing becomes a personal triumph. My relationship with my parents is an amazing one and there is nothing I would change about the way they protected me and provided for me and I’m super grateful for that. But sometimes relationships like that can become a crutch, one that I had really taken too much advantage of. I’m learning things on my own and it is super hard, but I feel better about it all.